The sound of silence

I feel like I've been a little misleading on my blog.  You've probably noticed I don't post when I am down or blue and I typically try to stay focused on a positive outlook.  But there are times when that might leave a gap in what is really going on in my world.  I want to close that gap tonight.

Since the cruise, Fritz and I have not been speaking.  Not only not speaking but he will not respond to my calls or texts.  We had a few arguments on the cruise which leads me to believe this is a purposeful period of silence. I stayed focused on the positives of our vacation (who doesn't get edgy on vacation sometimes?)  But the silence is not something that is foreign to our relationship.  In fact, there is a long history of this type of behavior on his side which lead to lots of confusion for me on if we are still in a relationship or not.

It breaks my heart and saddens me as you can imagine.  Luckily, I've found a great counselor (in addition to my Mom) to listen to me and help me sort it all out.

If you know me very well, you know I am a huge communicator.  I think it is a cornerstone of any relationship being a friendship or more.  Today I ask that you all make a conscious effort to speak about things in a loving and caring way.  Share how much you love someone and show them that they are important to you.  It will make a huge difference.

I know I will be fine with time.  I know things will work out just how they are supposed to work out. And in the meantime, I am trying to reconnect with my friends and create the circle of support I cherished before.  I thank everyone for being there for me.  I hope I return the favor on a regular basis as well.

Love you all.