Bittersweet memories

Today is my friend Julie's last infusion for colon cancer.  She has been battling this since Christmas Eve (merry Christmas...not).  I've not had many chances to see her as her house is tough for me and every time I offered to join her at the infusion center,she told me she was good.  So today I just pushed into her world.  I wanted to go celebrate with her and I wanted to show support because I know first hand how emotional today is for her  I picked up some flowers and a card and headed up to the Huntsman Center.  I knew exactly where to go and my way around because I had been there so many times with John and Mars.

Julie was doing great.  She was hooked up through her port and just kicking back with her hubby and Mom.  I gave her a big hug and we talked for a few minutes.  She looks great.  She has handled this cancer journey like a rock star. We talked about the adjustment coming back to work and getting back into life after cancer appointments.  It is a scary step for sure but I am confident she has the love and support to help her through.

What I wasn't prepared for what the flood of memories of going there with Mars.  There were bald women waiting in the waiting area and I swear I caught Mars out of the corner of my eye only to turn my head and realize it wasn't her.  When Mars was going to the infusion center, I was so sure Mars would beat her cancer.  She just had too!   Sadly, that wasn't the case.  I am hopeful for everyone fighting cancer that they can remain hopeful and beat their cancer.

It was all I could do to control my emotions as I visited with Julie for a few minutes.  We both got teary eyed as we talked. Reaching the end of treatment is a huge emotional relief.  Such a big step.  I don't want to steal away Julie's celebration and I am sure she will beat her cancer.  Congratulations Julie!!

I really miss Mars. No matter how you slice it, cancer sucks!