Is it half full or half empty?

I'm calling today the half way point in my radiation treatments. I guess since the total number is 15 which is not an even number, you can't really split it. But since I've never been  a math guru, I'm calling it half way.  Really it is as a half empty class time wise....or is it half full because I am almost done...hmmm.  I think it is half cooked and I am sliding down the other side.

I can't even begin to tell you how nice it was to not get radiation for 2 days over the weekend.  And it made Monday tough to motivate myself to go. It doesn't help that Monday is one of my busiest days at work so it all seemed to wiz by in a second.  But as usual, it went smooth.  Tuesday's radiation, we had a new "helper" (raccoon eye lady again!) who was pretty aggressive getting the cup on my eye. Ummm...those eyelids are connected to my face, bitch.  They put the blubber on and I could tell something wasn't right.  So I muttered something to Michelle (my regular set up lady) and she investigated and discovered it wasn't even on right.  So more fiddling but we did get it right and moved on to the radiation...which was fine.  I still struggle to look down but I keep trying.  Michelle said she has my setup figured out so I could take my face marks off.  I was honestly a little reluctant but she assured me she has it down and simply didn't need them.  So off they went.

I met with Dr. C Tuesday to have more leave paperwork done.  Yep, that is right.  Even with cancer and daily radiation treatments, you can get denied. But I got it all fixed and received notice this morning that I was approved. Dr. C was thrilled with how the radiation was all going.  The beads are gone.  He said he couldn't feel cancer but it is still "full" and mooshy.  He doesn't think the moosh is cancer but I think it is.  I would have loved if he told me we could stop after this week but he said we need to finish.  We also had a great talk about sarcomas which was great information.  When I left, I was talking to one of the nurses and commented on my "new bangs" and how they really want to stick up in a claw like in the 1980s.  By then, Dr. C was there too and another nurse.  The nurse challenged me to come in with a "claw" bang today.  Well I rarely back down from a joke challenge.

Today, I swept my hair into a side ponytail.  I even found a scrunchy!  Then I ratted those bangs..and ratted.  Straight in the air they went.   I walked in and went to her desk.  She started laughing and laughing.  I laughed the entire drive there.  But then I went to the waiting area and took it out.  I do think it is amazing how quickly my hair went back 30 years in 2 minutes.  And no Aqua Net required.

Flash back to the 80s.

Yesterday, the man that gets zapped on the same machine as me, right before me was working on the puzzle.  He invited me to sit on the other side and work on it too.  The mountains are done and we are on the sky.  He has some sort of cancer in his neck but he didn't remember the name.  He has a great sense of humor and the BEST handlebar mustache.  He seems to approach cancer like me...with a "can do" attitude and optimism.  He has like 35 treatments so I will be done and gone when he is half done.  I really hope he does well.  We need to have us fighters paving the way for others.

The puzzle today.  The sky is very difficult.

I took a photo of my eye right after treatment.  You can see how irritated it is.  It stays like that for a few hours.  I've found coming home and using a patch for a few hours gives it the time to recuperate and I am fine the rest the night.  What is fascinating about this photo is you can tell how much the lump has gone down.  Already...is just 5 treatments!!


Devil eye!

I want to take a moment to again publicly tell my Mom Happy Birthday!