17 and done

17 days of doing my hair
17 different outfits
17 days of wearing a bra
17 days of driving to Murray
17 days of being bolted down to a table
17 days to practice looking down with my eye closed
17 days of hellos and "see you tomorrows"
17 days of tasty candies
17 days of puzzle work
17 days worry and stress
17 days of radiation

DONE!!!

I've been waiting for today for a month. The day I can say I am done with this series of radiation treatments.  Today was Michelle and Raccoon lady doing my radiation.  When I was done, Michelle came and gave me a huge hug.  It was real and it was genuine.  And it was way appreciated.  We laughed a lot together over the last many weeks.  I will miss her.  The student lady with the huge smile came and hugged me.  The set up lady hugged me.  And I cried....and cried....and cried.  I was quite taken aback by my emotions.  I wasn't ready for that. But it was literally like a huge wave of relief that washed over me.

All those days of being strong.  Pretending like nothing was wrong and I handle cancer like a champ....all released.  Overwhelming tears of joy flood down my face today.

I met with Dr. C.  He is calling this a huge success.  He didn't feel anything he was concerned about.  I got a list of things to watch for.  The radiation will continue to do it's thing for another 2 weeks before I start healing.  They have a celebration bell people ring when they are done with treatment.  I'm really not a bell ringer.  Maybe it is because I know I'll be treating again someday.  I hope I have a fabulous team on my side next time.  They really are special people. 

Today I won!  I beat cancer's ass again! I am so relieved.