For the last 6 weeks or so, I've been out of sort. Not quite sure what was wrong but feeling grumpy and sad and lost and grieving my old self. I finally figured out what it was called. I am Restless. Not the first time in my life I've felt restless. But I've not really been able to shake the feeling.
In the past, I usually jump into activity. I sold my house and moved. I started volunteering at the cat shelter. I booked a cruise. I visited Nola. I created a new budget to formulate my next goal achievement. I start an exercise program. I start a project. I turn my restlessness into action. No doubt I am a doer.
This time, I can't seem to shake it. No I've not done all my past actions but I have done some. And I did new ones like getting my nose fixed. At this point, I am searching for the "why" or "root" of the feeling. What is making me restless and what does it mean? Or maybe it is just me learning to deal with my "new normal". Regardless, I am happy to know what to call it now. I am tuned in and listening. I do think when you put attention to something, it is easier to figure out a solution/purpose.
I'll let you know when I figure it out or resolve the feeling. Should be interesting. In the meantime, I'll try to not be impulsive and do something that is a bad idea in the long run.
Interesting observation! Curious about the impulse to do something that is bad idea in the long run, or was that a misstatement?
ReplyDeleteI meant try NOT to do something impulsive that will be a bad idea later. Being spontaneous is good but you sometimes need to be cautious because it can have a negative repercussion. So I am "hanging" right now waiting to figure it all out. :-)
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