What a difference 40 lbs makes!!

Today I am making my way to Baltimore for a follow up appointment at Johns Hopkins.   I've not traveled alone since this time last year.  And uncharacteristic to me, I've not traveled at all by plane since June!!  While I have not lost much weight since July (we can blame dating and lack of willpower), the good news is I have not gained either.  Anyway, I was a little nervous about flying to Baltimore alone.

I tease that I have body dysmorphia because I just don't see the 40 lbs gone. Yes I notice my face is not as round.  I also notice my clothes don't fit. I really didn't plan on buying new clothes yet because I hope to continue to lose weight.  But I am really sick of jeans that fall off and t-shirts that drown me.  I also have a few smaller things in my closet that now seem in the realm of fitting.   This is pretty exciting but when I look in the mirror, I simply don't see it.  Well today, I decided to walk all the way to the D10 gate myself. And I did it without a break.  I don't use escalators or moving sidewalks as it throws off my balance.    In Baltimore, there was not a wheelchair waiting for me so I walked that too.  And I did it without feeling like I was going to pass out.  I was able to stand 15 minutes to wait for the car rental bus!!!  No sweat.

So I finally bought some new jeans that fit and don't fall off when I walk.  Just one pair but it has been a long time since I had jeans that hugged my body and fit.  It was pretty nice.  And when I sat in my seat on the plane, I didn't have to break a sweat to fasten the seat belt!!! In fact, I had room to spare!!   I also noticed I fit in the seat better.  What a nice surprise!

I hope to keep losing weight but I'm going to take the holidays off and then hit it hard again in January.   If I could double my loss, I would be ecstatic!!  I don't know if that is feasible but I believe in "reach" goals.

Tomorrow is Johns Hopkins and then flying to Raleigh for a visit with Nola and Jennie.   I can't wait! I'm of course going to see Gregg too!   Another update to come soon.