Ugh. I'm Meloncoly

What the heck is that?  Well I'm in a funk.  I'm worriedstressedsadfrustrated.  Don't worry, I am okay but my family  is not 100%.

Mom had surgery today.  She is a lucky woman to make it into her 60's without ever having surgery.  But that streak ended today.  Her doctor was running 4 hours behind so she didn't even get into surgery until my work day was done.  She is fine but had some complications that have me worried.

I also find out my sister, who lives in North Carolina, got caught in the nasty snow storm they are having and couldn't make it home from work.  Luckily she is at a Residence Inn but has nothing with her but her purse and what she wore for the day.  No meds, no change of clothes, no snacks.  And the city is completely shut down.  Might be like that for a few days.  I know I would be going crazy if I was her.  And since I share her need for Benedryl at night to sleep, and she has none, I feel her level of frustration at considering a night with fitful sleep.  Never mind the other meds she is supposed to take.  She did get a comb and a toothbrush from the front desk.  She said the hotel is full of stranded people.  If it were me, this would be the end of my work week.  See you on  Monday!  I have my fingers crossed the storm has a clearing so she can get home tomorrow.  And I hope the power stays on.  They have power problems often in the storms.

My Aunt Mars did get discharged from the hospital on Monday so she is home and recovering.  I believe she has at least a month of recovery ahead of her still.  I've still stayed away in an effort to keep her from getting sick.  So that is a good deal.

Today I went to have my silk peel on  my face.  The lady who does it is named Jen.  I've not seen Jen since May!  That was before my radiation!  It was so nice to catch up with her.  While I've been gone, she got pregnant!!  This is a huge deal because her hubby had cancer so they have to do it the tough way (IVF) and she has had problems with that.  She is expecting a baby boy and is due in May.  One thing that really touched me and surprised me was while she was pampering my arm, she rested it on her pregnant tummy.  I could feel the fullness of her tummy and I swear I could feel the baby kick.  I forgot what that felt like so many years ago.  I really don't think I've ever touched another pregnant woman's tummy before.  It surprised me and it felt so special to know her little boy she dreamed of and worked so hard for is doing so well in her tummy.  I didn't say anything to her though.  She is a special person.  Not only does she make my skin look good, it is like having an hour of positive affirmations.  Who doesn't need that occasionally?

Tonight my old friend Bev came over for some Philip tutoring.  She brought her son Jaxon.  Much to my surprise, he brought his stuff for his Valentine's school box.  He asked if I would help him.  It is so funny because someone asked online about Valentine's  boxes and I realized I never made one with Philip because they either did them in class or didn't do them at all.  So we spent some time planning and I let him really drive the creative process. I helped by covering his box with Duck Tape and paper (under his direction) while he made a "Stained Glass Heart" drawing.  It actually was a very fun process.  I was happy I've learned patience and allowing the child to drive the process.  He was very happy with the end result and was positive he would win a prize for the best box.  It was fun to share my creative side with him.  And Philip was able to help Bev with her Algebra and put a little cash in his pocket.  All good things.  Warmed my heart tonight.

And speaking of hearts....I got an email last week that Giardino's was offering free shipping of true blue deep dish Chicago pizza.  Yes this is pizza made in Chicago and shipped to me to finish cooking at home.  I swear that pizza is 2" deep.  We've had pizza while in Chicago and I've had it delivered before and we loved it.  It comes in a big Styrofoam container with dry ice.  It was still frozen hard as a rock when I got it.   I got a heart shaped pizza this time.  I would cook it for Friday but I want to share it with my sweetheart, Philip who will be at his Dad's house.  So I will hang on to it until next week.  I can't wait!!

And I got my big work project handed off yesterday.  So now I wait until it comes back to me for review.  Huge relief though.

So good things and bad things.  I guess I am worried about my loved ones but I am sure it will all work out.  I feel better just typing the things out.  I am a "glass half full" kind of gal so I am trying to keep that damn glass 1/2 full and not knock it over, spilling all over my important papers.  Haha.

I made a joke on Facebook today....I need to rearrange my bedroom furniture because I keep getting up on the wrong side of the bed.  Hahaha.  I thought it was funny.  I think people understood it was a funny.  Anyway, I need to get an action plan together to make sure I am happy more and not so worriedstressedsadfrustrated.  I highly suspect getting back to the gym is part of that.  After 2 weeks off, I can feel it slip away...and it just can't.  Life is really all about how we handle the daily "intakes" we receive.  Finding productive ways to deal with the ups and downs is a big task....but a good thing to strive for more "ups" then "down".  Now I need to ratchet it up and practice what I preach!

Thanks for listening.