I mentioned in my post yesterday, going to my favorite ENT, Dr. S. I saw him today. He actually sent me for a hearing test and ear drum check. He has an audiologist in his office and a sound proof booth! My ear drums were just fine. They did the hearing test. I could tell I was missing stuff in my right ear and sure enough I was. But overall my hearing was okay. He said if I wanted a hearing aid, we could but it wasn't necessary yet. Ya think? I'm not here for a hearing aid...although I suspect they are in my future. What they did find is there wasn't pressure in my ears like I thought which meant there was "gunk" in the Eustachian tubes. So we decided to do a 6 day taper of Prednisone....well actually Medrol which I understand is easier on the body than Prednisone. Dr. S felt this was just the ticket to get rid of the plugged feeling. He also gave me the clear to travel to Oakland for work in 1.5 weeks.
I've not seen Dr. S since June and before my radiation. So he was fascinated in my eyebrow and how it is doing. He was thrilled I didn't have any vision implications but I didn't have to tell him about the new lump. He found it himself. I explained our (Dr. L and my) plan to see the radiologist and then have it removed if we aren't going to do radiation. He said he would be happy to remove it for me if it comes to that. I couldn't help but ask about his daughter, Jen who does my face stuff. Last I saw her in June, she was concerned she had cancer. She was trying to get pregnant and kept finding problems. He let me know today she did not have cancer and in fact, was pregnant! Still in the risk window but they are very pleased and hopeful that it will be a healthy pregnancy. I'm so happy for her.
And after waking up rubbing my eyebrow all night, I decided to make an appt with Dr. C (radiologist). I called this morning and they were so sorry they couldn't get me in today (I didn't want to go in today). But I have an appointment next week. So we will see what he says then.
Yesterday night I was sitting on the couch fussing over my new cable machine and the DVR when Philip send me a name of a song to listen too. We have grown apart in our music preferences. He likes "Screamo" now which is probably worse to me than even country! But he told me to pull up "Second and Sebring ACOUSTIC version. I was a little reluctant but when I did, I was overwhelmed with feelings. I asked Philip if that was a song from him to me and he shyly said yes. It was written from one of the musicians from "Of Mice and Men" whose mother's died when he was young. I cannot tell you how it filled my heart and soul to receive something so meaningful and special from my dear sweet (but totally a teen) son. Here are the lyrics. If you are interested in hearing it sung (non screamo style), I included a link to the You Tube video.
"Second & Sebring"
I believe it's time for me to be famous,
And out of place.
I believe it's time for me to move forward,
When I break through.
This time I'll, make you,
Proud to see me over, come on daylight.
Proud of, who you raised.
Your shelter, your peacefulness.
So this time I'll make you proud.
Proud of, who you raised up.
You know that I will,
Always be here 'til the end.
Come back so I can say thank you for this,
Home cooked meals and a place to rest,
My troubled head when you're away,
I've passed the test, I've earned an A,
Not just in school, but in life,
You'll always be right by my side.
To help me show, hope to all,
That are lost and sick in this dying world.
I'll use the love you left behind,
I'll change their minds, I'll change their minds.
I hope, I hope you smile,
When you look down on me.
I hope you smile.
This can't, we won't know.
I hope that I make you proud.
This is not what it is, only baby scars.
I need your love like a boy needs his mother's side.
This is not what it is, only baby scars.
I need your love like a boy needs his mother's side.
This is not what it is, only baby scars.
I need your love like a boy needs his mother's side, yeah.
I believe it's time for me to be famous,
And out of place.
I believe it's time for me to move forward,
When I break through.
This time I'll, make you,
Proud to see me over, come on daylight.
Proud of, who you raised.
Your shelter, your peacefulness.
So this time I'll make you proud.
Proud of, who you raised up.
You know that I will,
Always be here 'til the end.
Come back so I can say thank you for this,
Home cooked meals and a place to rest,
My troubled head when you're away,
I've passed the test, I've earned an A,
Not just in school, but in life,
You'll always be right by my side.
To help me show, hope to all,
That are lost and sick in this dying world.
I'll use the love you left behind,
I'll change their minds, I'll change their minds.
I hope, I hope you smile,
When you look down on me.
I hope you smile.
This can't, we won't know.
I hope that I make you proud.
This is not what it is, only baby scars.
I need your love like a boy needs his mother's side.
This is not what it is, only baby scars.
I need your love like a boy needs his mother's side.
This is not what it is, only baby scars.
I need your love like a boy needs his mother's side, yeah.
Of course I was touched and always incredibly proud of Philip. Thanks Philip for such a sweet sentiment. Words don't express what this means to me. Come over here and let's cuddle like we did when you were 2 in the rocking chair.
During our text talk, we talked about pride. Why is it some people can't say the "P" word? It is such a simple word. There is nothing wrong with being proud. Sometimes just hearing someone is proud of us means the world to us. I'm going to keep "noodling" over this word.
Philip is out at Saltair to a "Screamo" concert this evening. He is driving his friends out there. Actually the concert friends are 2 cute girls from school. They both have boyfriends but they are great friends to Philip. As a Mom, I worry. Saltair has a reputation of being a little rough. It is also stormy and it is a ways away. Logically I know he will be fine but inside, I'll be glad when he gets home tonight.
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